First Daughter

Mia believed that she was different than everyone else and that her life would never be normal. Of course this is a lie, but how easy is it for us to believe these things? Though this wasn’t a movie about spiritual warfare, this is such a spiritual warfare issue. The devil wants us to believe that this is true and to keep us divided from the unity of others. Yes, she is different in the fact that she is the President’s daughter and everyone else is not. This is just semantics, we all have areas in which we could say the same thing; I’m an MK, a missionary, am a widow, have a disability, was abused, am dealing with grief or any other issue that appears to separate us from others. It is easy to believe that we are the only ones whom have experienced this and that there is no one else whom can understand. Though one may not understand our exact issue, each of us has something that makes us feel this same way.
She struggled with identity, belonging, knowing what was socially acceptable and popular, wasn’t completely aware of safety and the areas in which she was were different than what is dealt with in ‘real’ life plus, she was put on a pedestal and had the pressure to be perfect. All of these issues are an extension to the issue of being ‘different’. Though there are lies that we believe there is also a lot of truth to these issues. It was true that she didn’t know what was socially acceptable, popular or safe and that people put her on a pedestal with the expectation of being perfect. These things did not make her who she was or keep her from overcoming these obstacles. It is often so easy to allow these issues to make us feel inferior and to oppress us. This is another tactic of the enemy.
I myself have struggled through this issue of being different and feeling that no one does or will understand me, ever. God revealed this lie and proved it to be a lie this summer. I have had a lot happen to me and in my life, much of which I have had little or no control, the most recent struggle being my diagnosis of Fibromyalgia and learning to live a life that looks different than it used to be. There has been much judgment from people in my life and lack of understanding. I had come to believe that because of this I am completely different than others, can’t do what others do and am inferior to them. For the past year, my soul has been screaming out “this is not true”! Therefore, I have been swinging back and forth on a pendulum that never seems to stop. One day I’m helping to change my community, the next I am angry at everyone in it.
Thanks to the help of my Green Team (and Nell, but she’s an extension to the Green Team, even if she is married) and a specific meeting that we had, God’s truth and light has been able to shine through. I let out all these feelings of being different, feeling as if no one understands me and hating myself for the anger that comes out. My team very lovingly and directly, pointed out that I am not the only whom feels this way and each of them shared ways in which they also feel different. They then helped me to process ideas on how I can come to terms with this and find a balance. As hard as this conversation was, it was great to find out that being different, in all actuality, is normal.